Finishing sixth form has left me undoubtedly bamboozled about the future- upon recieving grades I didn't particually wish for, because somehow exams seem to have it in for me, but still leaving with acceptable grades none the less. I've been forced into a current storm of mindfuck, otherwise known as the world of work. Due to my colleges blatent prejudice against older students, i've been forced into realising that college for a third year and my obviously horrific age may not be a good idea after all and instead i'm going to have to get a job (if thats even possible, in london its more like attempting and failing miserably).
In my utter state of biwilderment and quite frankly well earned kharma for calling both my sister and my partner dolescum for getting job seekers allowance, its now become a part of my reality and as of the very near future i'm going to endure the dolescum status. Oh dear indeed. However, as my plans are usually the best inventions ever and I can get out of just about every sticky situation, i've figured (and been advised) to apply to a number of jobs, even if their crap, just so I can have some money, because right now being skint has quite frankly lost its novelty and I want some money.
There are too many material things I yearn for and I wont be satisfied until I have all of the pretty little things stored in my bedroom. Plus I need a bookshelf, my books are spewing off the sides of my shelves, its not even funny any more.
HOWEVER, this sudden realisation of not having go back to college means I can sit on my arse and read all of my books and the future books I wont be able to help myself buying.
Ahwell, an update on my struggle to find work will be in order during the coming months. So indulge yourselves in my misery.
Peace.
Sunday, 21 August 2011
Saturday, 13 August 2011
General
Right, so i'm very clearly taking ages to read anything which isn't what I planned.
But I'm now quite burried in the LOTR trilogy, making my book about 1000 pages long :S umm i'm quite disappointed the movies cut sooooo much out and twisted some of the scenes to sort of make sense and make the films flow, but if they hadn't the movies would be extremely long (longer than they already are *cough* nearly 3 hours or so *cough*). But oh well.
I've just posted my application form to get two free thorpe park tickets, am I scared? Yes, Yes I am. But considering I willingly (and joyfully, but soon after regretted it) went on wipeout at PWH I think these rides will be a breeze.. so to speak. I'm quite looking forward to going on Saw the ride and colosus, as well as stealth, though I think I may just end up dying while I'm at the top of that, or while i'm plummeting to the bottom... or possibly both.
But never the less i'm hoping it will prove to be an awesome birthday trip for both me and Tom as I know he's dying to go on nemesis inferno again (i myself am shit scared of course =D).
As far as my leaf turning process goes, its going rather well. The little devil in my head has more or less packed his bags and is heading for spain or something like that. I'm trying not to let things get to me or go to my head. It's nice having peace of mind for once, plus as a step forward i've added a note in my book to refer to when I am bombarded with normality reducing parasitic thoughts :) plus the conversations i'm having lately concerning the future is helping massively sooo... smiles all round I think :)
But I'm now quite burried in the LOTR trilogy, making my book about 1000 pages long :S umm i'm quite disappointed the movies cut sooooo much out and twisted some of the scenes to sort of make sense and make the films flow, but if they hadn't the movies would be extremely long (longer than they already are *cough* nearly 3 hours or so *cough*). But oh well.
I've just posted my application form to get two free thorpe park tickets, am I scared? Yes, Yes I am. But considering I willingly (and joyfully, but soon after regretted it) went on wipeout at PWH I think these rides will be a breeze.. so to speak. I'm quite looking forward to going on Saw the ride and colosus, as well as stealth, though I think I may just end up dying while I'm at the top of that, or while i'm plummeting to the bottom... or possibly both.
But never the less i'm hoping it will prove to be an awesome birthday trip for both me and Tom as I know he's dying to go on nemesis inferno again (i myself am shit scared of course =D).
As far as my leaf turning process goes, its going rather well. The little devil in my head has more or less packed his bags and is heading for spain or something like that. I'm trying not to let things get to me or go to my head. It's nice having peace of mind for once, plus as a step forward i've added a note in my book to refer to when I am bombarded with normality reducing parasitic thoughts :) plus the conversations i'm having lately concerning the future is helping massively sooo... smiles all round I think :)
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