Life story

I started writing my life story on here just now, and got to my difficult age of 16 and decided against it because theres certain things at that age that I just don't want publicised.
I think my life is just too emotional and too personal to be shared and I'd rather leave the past where its at.
Ohwell, maybe i'll write a book about it one day.

But heres a word to sum up my life: Unorthodox.

And heres a poem which relates to me this very second

Crossing the water by Plath

Black lake, black boat, two black, cut-paper people.

Where do the black trees go that drink here?
Their shadows must cover Canada.

A little light is filtering from the water flowers.
Their leaves do not wish us to hurry:
They are round and flat and full of dark advice.

Cold worlds shake from the oar.
The spirit of blackness is in us, it is in the fishes.
A snag is lifting a valedictory, pale hand;

Stars open among the lilies.
Are you not blinded by such expressionless sirens?
This is the silence of astounded souls.

Merry sodding christmas

The fact I weren't allowed to come home in nearly 2 weeks has really dampened my christmas spirit.
So I opened most of my presents yesterday instead of today. I need things to cheer me up coz these 2 weeks have got right under my thumb.

And now, i'm enduring our typical  christmas day where we put a movie on and my mum decides to phone family members and talks over the whole movie >.< And I am NOT going to try and listen to it over the sheer volume of her voice.

I just want christmas dinner, which will make me mildly happy, considering my mood at the current moment.

On brighter news, on 13th December my lovely other half asked me to marry him =D  (<--- see that face? well x's it by 1000000000000 recuring). Of course I said yes, who wouldn't? he's positively the single most amazing person i've ever come across, with a heart of gold, elf ears and rosy cheeks to match.
(Plus the ring is very pretty!!!)


Lets try and enjoy christmas shall we.

happy blogging

I haven't blogged in what seems like years, uhhh okay, here goes:

So, I have a job now, fun times.
I have a new phone, fun times.
I'm also 20 now, not so fun times.

It is christmas soon which i'm soooooo happy about ---> CHRISTMAS!!! <---  :)
I have all my presents wrapped and ready to hand out which seriously makes a change for me, usually i'm one of those that stumbles into shops a few days before christmas completely clueless as to what to buy anyone =/

anyway, i bought this book earlier and its full of love poems- probably quite cheesey but it has Sylvia Plath, Edgar Allen Poe and some of my other favourites in it so i was like WHY THE HELL NOT =D
and I was reading through it and thought this one was nice and quirky so i thought i'd share some poem love:

Her face Her tongue Her Wit
so fair so sweet so sharp
first bent then drew then hit
mine eye mine ear mine heart

Mine eye            Mine ear           My heart
to like                 to learn             to love
her face             her tongue         her wit
doth lead          doth teach         doth move

Her face           Her tongue          Her wit
with beams       with sound          with art
doth blind         doth charm         doth knit
mine eye           mine ear             my heart

Mine eye         Mine ear           My heart
with life           with hope          with skill
her face           her tongue         her wit
doth feed        doth feast          doth fill

O face            O tongue           O wit
with frowns     with cheeks       with smart
wrong not       vex not              wound not
mine eye         mine ear            my heart

This eye        This ear             This heart
shall joy        shall yield           shall swear
her face        her tongue          her wit
to serve        to trust               to fear.


Read it how you will :)
Its quite pleasing.

Name: Loreta Laura Hayward


DOB: 26th september 1991

Birthplace: Hackney

Current location: Leytonstone

Eye color: Brown

Hair Color: Currently red
Height: 5'7

Heritage: English, Irish, Scottish, French etc

Piercings: 8

Tattoos: Nope

Favorite

Band/Singer: Inme (band) Example (singer)

Song: Won't go quietly- Example

Genre of Music: Alternative English rock

Colour(s): Purple, teal, grey, brown, red, forrest green

TV show(s): Inbetweeners, peepshow, friends

Movie(s): Braveheart, LOTR, One flew over the cuckoos nest

Food: Vegtarian bolognese

Store: Evolution or the fantastic bookshop in yarmouth

#: 13

Drink: Coffee

Clothing Brand: N/A

Shoe Brand: Vans
Animal: All of them =D

Pizza topping: Cheese

Season: Autumn

Month: November

Holiday: Christmas

Flower: Lily

This or That

Sunny or rainy: Sunny

Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate

Fruit or veggie: Veggie

Night or day: Night

Sour or sweet: Sweet

Love or money: Love

Phone or in person: In person
Poor & happy or rich & miserable: Poor and happy

Looks or personality: A good combination of the both

Coffee or tea: COFFEE

Hot or cold: Cold

Your

Goal for this year: Lose weight (as always)

Most missed memory: At the moment its heathrow terminal 5 travel lodge

Best physical feature: My arse?

First thought waking up: WHY!!???

Future: Will be spent with Thomas :)

Do you wanna get married: Yes

Do you wanna have kids: Yes

If so, how many: 3 or 4 or more :)

Do you wanna go to college: I have been thanks

What do you want to be: I wanna be an writer/explorer but that wont happen

Do You

Dance in the rain: I probably would

Smoke: Sometimes, not very often

Drink: Not often, only at parties

Shower daily: I was daily yes

Like thunderstorms: I do

Curse: All the time

Sing: I try to..

Play an instrument: Nope

Think you are good looking: Well I don't think i'm ugly soo...

Get along with your parents: One of them yes

Other Questions

Can you whistle: I can indeed

Right or left handed: Right

Your bedtime: Whenever I need to go to bed

Biggest fear: Water, wasps, spiders.

3 things you can't live without: Tom, coffee & food
Color of your room: Purple

Siblings: 5 of them

Middle name: Laura

Pets: 1 budgie and 6 goldfish

Nicknames: Lozzie

For or against gay marriage: For

Thoughts on abortion: Nooooo no no!

If you could be anywhere right now where would you be: In Norwich waiting for Tom to get off his train and then go back to yarmouth with him.

Do you wear contacts/glasses: No

Are you afraid of the dark: No

Related to my last post.