I wasn't going to write a blog until i've finished my book project, but I feel the need to have a good rant as the self indulgent issue of appearance of pretty much every woman/girl makes me feel ill.
I can't fathom why women and girls are so concerned of their own appearance to the point where they literally make themselves look worse than what they probably did prior to that. Why the female population feel the need to become thinner than a piece of paper goes over my head- I can't even see how skinnyness is the slightest bit attractive, how is bones sticking out and looking like you're about to snap if someone brushes past you or even breathes near you attractive? Fair enough each to their own and all that but seriously, when females become very skinny they lose their femininity, the feminine shape and they look almost androgenous, and to be quite honest, they look ill. How has the media managed to succeeded in promoting the idea that being as thin as a model (who by the way has a horrendously unhealthy lifestyle due to the pressures of the modelling industry) is in any way idealistic. Bare in mind that these models, as thin as they are have been photoshopped to look 'perfect' (what ever that is) and how they look in these images is probably far off from what they really look like, as well as these images not being even remotely achievable naturally.
It absolutely grates on me that everyone is trying to look like something that they can't even achieve. And also the fact that it makes some people incredibly ill and is sadly fatal in some cases. It saddens me to know that girls are actually willing to become ill and give up their lives so they can look like the women in the magazines.
I think everyone is beautiful and no one should feel pressurised to look like anyone else or any specific icon or image. It also amazes me how much what is considered to be attractive or 'perfect' has changed dramatically- considering larger women were considered very attractive as it portrayed their fertility and ability to bear a child- fair enough we no longer live in an age where having children is a major concern and its not really part of our everyday focus but how has this nationwide opinion changed so much. From size, lets say 16+ to size 0 or below. Theres nothing in my opinion attractive about size zero/two/four/six/eight- I just think its too skinny. I mean i've never been any of those sizes (apart from when I was like 6 years old when that doesn't count) and I would never want to be that size either. I've always carried a little bit more weight than I should, but its never been an unhealthy amount. I believe in being healthy, and I am healthy so I don't care if i'm a little bit podgey in some places- I love food, I love eating food, I love cooking food, food is literally the way to win my heart (until the food is gone =P). I think food should be enjoyed and not feared.
On the contrary to this, a survey was done by men to indicate their preference for a female body type and it actyally showed that most men prefer curvier women so what the hell are these wafer thin girls on? thinking men will like them more or be more attracted to them if they're stick thin... It honestly does not make sense.
Moving away slightly I realise I do myself have a large amount of body and image issues- I have done from as far as I can remember but even though sometimes I feel like becoming a hermit so no one can ever see me and I don't have to worry about what I look like etc, I still can't help but be satisfied with the fact that I am quite chubby and curvy, I like having love handles and bits my other half can grab (too much infomation I know)- if he's satisfied and more than happy with me how I am than why should I change? I'm not going to get sucked in by unrealistic images of women. Women should have meat on them, men should have meat on them. Big is beautiful in my mind.
Dear mass media stop polluting female minds!
Monday, 25 July 2011
Tuesday, 12 July 2011
Summer reading project.
Been buying tonnes of books recently- so many that i've had to give up another shelf.
Now the project basically involves me reading all of my books and recording what i've read and how long it took and what I thought of it. Now I warn you, my reading is a little rusty because I haven't had the time to read hardly anything the past two years which is so so shameful, so it may take me ages to read what seems like an 'easy read'.
So here goes:
1) Pride and Prejudice- 5-6 days
Now i've heard so many people call this the longest and most boring book they've ever read, however I think it's quiteposibly the best book i've ever read, having watched the series and the movie which does the book absolutely no credit and chose the actors poorly. I found reading the book a lot more informative on every character and allowed me to explore and empathise as well as comprehend each of the situations and characters which the movie failed to achieve.
2) Room- 1 1/2 days
Room is quite possibly the saddest book i've ever written, the mystery litterally unravels within the story and its utterly heart breaking. After reading the book I did a little reasearch and found it was influenced by a true story. I found it quite a frustrating and unbarable read as well as very compelling, purely because I could almost imagine being in that given situation and I found it incredibly easy to relate to 'ma' and felt every bit of distress.
3) Alice In Wonderland- Less than 1 day
I've never read Alice in Wonderland before and its been years since I watched the movie, so I was quite rusty on my memory of what actually happens. I found the book cery compelling to read on and found it really quite cheerful, being a fan of Lewis Carroll anyway I new I would probably like the book. I do love a bit of good old fantasy and queer/absurd story lines, however, I found it rather difficult to keep up with what was going on and found it really quite bizarre (as it was) but none the less a very good read.
4) The Rainbow- In the process of reading.
5) Lord of the Rings- Trilogy- In the process of reading
Now the project basically involves me reading all of my books and recording what i've read and how long it took and what I thought of it. Now I warn you, my reading is a little rusty because I haven't had the time to read hardly anything the past two years which is so so shameful, so it may take me ages to read what seems like an 'easy read'.
So here goes:
1) Pride and Prejudice- 5-6 days
Now i've heard so many people call this the longest and most boring book they've ever read, however I think it's quiteposibly the best book i've ever read, having watched the series and the movie which does the book absolutely no credit and chose the actors poorly. I found reading the book a lot more informative on every character and allowed me to explore and empathise as well as comprehend each of the situations and characters which the movie failed to achieve.
2) Room- 1 1/2 days
Room is quite possibly the saddest book i've ever written, the mystery litterally unravels within the story and its utterly heart breaking. After reading the book I did a little reasearch and found it was influenced by a true story. I found it quite a frustrating and unbarable read as well as very compelling, purely because I could almost imagine being in that given situation and I found it incredibly easy to relate to 'ma' and felt every bit of distress.
3) Alice In Wonderland- Less than 1 day
I've never read Alice in Wonderland before and its been years since I watched the movie, so I was quite rusty on my memory of what actually happens. I found the book cery compelling to read on and found it really quite cheerful, being a fan of Lewis Carroll anyway I new I would probably like the book. I do love a bit of good old fantasy and queer/absurd story lines, however, I found it rather difficult to keep up with what was going on and found it really quite bizarre (as it was) but none the less a very good read.
4) The Rainbow- In the process of reading.
5) Lord of the Rings- Trilogy- In the process of reading
Monday, 11 July 2011
My Aquarium
Just a few pictures of the latest addition to the fish tank.
They're rather gorgeous i'd say
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They're rather gorgeous i'd say
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Lets start again
I got quite sick of everything I posted before.
This new leaf i've been promising myself i'll turn over and actually stick to it, well (brace yourself) I'm actually going to do it. It doesn't involve changing myself at all, just my attitude to things.
I've realised I have nothing at all to to worry or threat about; everything is more than dandy.
Ofcourse staying in college a 3rd year isn't quite ideal- It means countless essays and god knows what from economics (brain malfunction perhaps?) However considering i'll have a full A Level in Anthropology I think it'll be worth it. Considering my college is one of the few that teaches the course it'll be a devine sight for the uni's I apply for later on in the year (a few different from last year- I would like to stay as far away from the 'grim north' as possible). I've devoted so many hours of thought on this subject as a matter of considering future paths/ careers because I don't tend to/ find it difficult to stick to a subject I choose before being whisked off with infatuatuation for another. I've finaly found the route I want to take- it's an incredible interest of mine and has loads of branches of which I could take and shape into my own speciality. Not to mention I'm bloody good at it.
I definately do not regret not going down th nursing for mental health path- though it was just a phase, it still grasps my interest and I think I'll pursue it in a different way and merely learn about it in my own time, much like i'll will philosophy (when i've stopped hating it ofcourse). I kind of wonder how it would have been had I chosen to stay with nursing- i would have ended up up t'north and being gravely unhappy, not to mention how far i'd be from anyone I care about and the journey both there and back- how boring! The M1 has to be the most god awful motorway that ever existed- there is nothing along that motor way that stands out or screams uniqueness. It's the most boring journey i've ever endured and not to mention the people who you have to travel with- they're rude, noisey and have no regards to the people around them. Eurgh.
Outside of the education aspect of my life, there was a purpose for the turning of the leaf- of reasons I wont go into. My ways of thinking have been a bit ill so to speak and my attitude and behaviour just as bad when it needn't be. I have everything to fault myself for and I think i've been quite denial about it in previous situations. I've been wanting to do this for a while but I guess I never allowed myself to because it was somewhat beyond what I believed in.
I've realised i've got nothing to whine and moan about- I have everything I need to be happy, so whats a few mishaps in the past? Granted theres 1 or 2 at the present, but nothing but time and space will either cure them or forget them- though more likely to be the latter. Lets just bury the dead, plant my new leaf tree and be happy with the present and future. Because whats the point of being angry at something I can't change? I should just be happy and thankful that it did happen because it worked out for the best and it has allowed me to repair everything and make it even better than it was. Thats got to count for something right?
This new leaf i've been promising myself i'll turn over and actually stick to it, well (brace yourself) I'm actually going to do it. It doesn't involve changing myself at all, just my attitude to things.
I've realised I have nothing at all to to worry or threat about; everything is more than dandy.
Ofcourse staying in college a 3rd year isn't quite ideal- It means countless essays and god knows what from economics (brain malfunction perhaps?) However considering i'll have a full A Level in Anthropology I think it'll be worth it. Considering my college is one of the few that teaches the course it'll be a devine sight for the uni's I apply for later on in the year (a few different from last year- I would like to stay as far away from the 'grim north' as possible). I've devoted so many hours of thought on this subject as a matter of considering future paths/ careers because I don't tend to/ find it difficult to stick to a subject I choose before being whisked off with infatuatuation for another. I've finaly found the route I want to take- it's an incredible interest of mine and has loads of branches of which I could take and shape into my own speciality. Not to mention I'm bloody good at it.
I definately do not regret not going down th nursing for mental health path- though it was just a phase, it still grasps my interest and I think I'll pursue it in a different way and merely learn about it in my own time, much like i'll will philosophy (when i've stopped hating it ofcourse). I kind of wonder how it would have been had I chosen to stay with nursing- i would have ended up up t'north and being gravely unhappy, not to mention how far i'd be from anyone I care about and the journey both there and back- how boring! The M1 has to be the most god awful motorway that ever existed- there is nothing along that motor way that stands out or screams uniqueness. It's the most boring journey i've ever endured and not to mention the people who you have to travel with- they're rude, noisey and have no regards to the people around them. Eurgh.
Outside of the education aspect of my life, there was a purpose for the turning of the leaf- of reasons I wont go into. My ways of thinking have been a bit ill so to speak and my attitude and behaviour just as bad when it needn't be. I have everything to fault myself for and I think i've been quite denial about it in previous situations. I've been wanting to do this for a while but I guess I never allowed myself to because it was somewhat beyond what I believed in.
I've realised i've got nothing to whine and moan about- I have everything I need to be happy, so whats a few mishaps in the past? Granted theres 1 or 2 at the present, but nothing but time and space will either cure them or forget them- though more likely to be the latter. Lets just bury the dead, plant my new leaf tree and be happy with the present and future. Because whats the point of being angry at something I can't change? I should just be happy and thankful that it did happen because it worked out for the best and it has allowed me to repair everything and make it even better than it was. Thats got to count for something right?
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