Name: Loreta Laura Hayward
DOB: 26th september 1991
Birthplace: Hackney
Current location: Leytonstone
Eye color: Brown
Hair Color: Currently red
Height: 5'7
Heritage: English, Irish, Scottish, French etc
Piercings: 8
Tattoos: Nope
Favorite
Band/Singer: Inme (band) Example (singer)
Song: Won't go quietly- Example
Genre of Music: Alternative English rock
Colour(s): Purple, teal, grey, brown, red, forrest green
TV show(s): Inbetweeners, peepshow, friends
Movie(s): Braveheart, LOTR, One flew over the cuckoos nest
Food: Vegtarian bolognese
Store: Evolution or the fantastic bookshop in yarmouth
#: 13
Drink: Coffee
Clothing Brand: N/A
Shoe Brand: Vans
Animal: All of them =D
Pizza topping: Cheese
Season: Autumn
Month: November
Holiday: Christmas
Flower: Lily
This or That
Sunny or rainy: Sunny
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Fruit or veggie: Veggie
Night or day: Night
Sour or sweet: Sweet
Love or money: Love
Phone or in person: In person
Poor & happy or rich & miserable: Poor and happy
Looks or personality: A good combination of the both
Coffee or tea: COFFEE
Hot or cold: Cold
Your
Goal for this year: Lose weight (as always)
Most missed memory: At the moment its heathrow terminal 5 travel lodge
Best physical feature: My arse?
First thought waking up: WHY!!???
Future: Will be spent with Thomas :)
Do you wanna get married: Yes
Do you wanna have kids: Yes
If so, how many: 3 or 4 or more :)
Do you wanna go to college: I have been thanks
What do you want to be: I wanna be an writer/explorer but that wont happen
Do You
Dance in the rain: I probably would
Smoke: Sometimes, not very often
Drink: Not often, only at parties
Shower daily: I was daily yes
Like thunderstorms: I do
Curse: All the time
Sing: I try to..
Play an instrument: Nope
Think you are good looking: Well I don't think i'm ugly soo...
Get along with your parents: One of them yes
Other Questions
Can you whistle: I can indeed
Right or left handed: Right
Your bedtime: Whenever I need to go to bed
Biggest fear: Water, wasps, spiders.
3 things you can't live without: Tom, coffee & food
Color of your room: Purple
Siblings: 5 of them
Middle name: Laura
Pets: 1 budgie and 6 goldfish
Nicknames: Lozzie
For or against gay marriage: For
Thoughts on abortion: Nooooo no no!
If you could be anywhere right now where would you be: In Norwich waiting for Tom to get off his train and then go back to yarmouth with him.
Do you wear contacts/glasses: No
Are you afraid of the dark: No
Wednesday, 7 September 2011
You are one of God's mistakes.
you crying tragic waste of skin. (lyrics)
I've recently been sorting out an old box of stuff, and my cd collection and i've made a very important realisation and it's sparked off a trail of thought- I've realised i'm really possessive over things, mostly about the section of my life i'm in, but I think it's quite charming- you may think its creepy.
There are things I meant to throw away a long time ago but i've held on to them. Now, i'm not the type to hold on to memories, because quite frankly I find remembering them too painful so i'd rather them slip happily into the depths of forgotten time.
I don't want to sound like an obnoxious twat when I say that, because i'm not.
I'm the sort of person who lives for the present and future. I hate the past. I hate everything in the past and most of the people in it. And it really bugged me knowing I kept this stuff because I don't know why I did- none of what I kept was from a particularly happy time in my life, in fact its from the build up to the worst time of my life and it's a time i'd rather pretend never happened (reguardless of my own reminders). However, let me just share the stuff I found: Old gig tickets, old photos, old notes, old cards. The stuff I actively keep without even questioning them is possibly everything obtainable from a general day out with Tom; such as receipts, cinema tickets, coach/train/bus tickets, cards, money, wrappers, labels, empty bottles and the general intense memory of his smell and taste, his voice, the way his eyes look when he looks at me and how his skin feels, how his hugs feel, how his hands feel, the warmth of his body- generally how he feels in all aspects. Some of the other things i've kept are empty purfume bottles because the smell reminds me of a certain time we were together: Kate Moss- Velvet hour reminds me of christmas 2008- When the bottle ran dry- the whole of the wintery season (The second season I love most). It reminds me so much of being in his house in Norwich (which he doesn't have anymore)- it reminds me so much that I get the exact moment I sprayed it flash back in my mind as if it just happened.
Back to what I was talking about though...With me saying that era's of my life are too painful to remember, its not me being attention seeking and over exagerating, its because it generally was. I had a conversation earlier on today about how certain people lie about themselves (which is where this is going), whether it be because they can't help it or because they're horrible selfish attention seeking people. I don't know, it genuinely made me grateful for the way I am and made me certain of something (I wont say what).
I'm a very honest person and I don't believe in lying, not for any reason. I don't believe theres any excuse for lying, nor any reason why someone should feel the need to lie. I have never lied of a serious kind, obviously the petty 'i'm not drunk, honest' kind, and I have certainly never lied about another person before.
I am genuine, and i am (if i do say so myself) a very nice person. I've spent the last 3 years going out of my way to make a special person happy, and not because I felt I had to, but because I wanted to. I wanted to be the person to repair his confidence, trust and faith in people and most of all I wanted to make him happy. There is nothing I wouldn't do to make him happy- it's honestly all I want.
Hes been the main reason for myself and my life changing and I think theres something of a serious nature between us, theres something no one else can feel between us. And what makes that so is pure honesty and trust in one another.
This is purely a personal realisation after I admitedly I felt quite rubbish looking through old memories and listening to my old music that reminded me of crap that was in the past, but it is there and people are there for a reason.
Most of the time I leave people behind, because I dont feel they're worth keeping in my life or because I probably don't like them or they've done something I can't forgive. I'm not a very forgiving person anyway because I don't believe people should do things they need to be forgiven for.
And the one thing I can't forgive is lying.
I really do pity people who feel the need to lie to others or about others to make themselves seem more interesting than they really are or to make people like them or some rubbish like that. I hate pretentious people, I hate people trying to be something else, I hate attention seeking people and I hate selfish people.
They always forget the people they're hurting.
All I want to do is make him happy.
I've recently been sorting out an old box of stuff, and my cd collection and i've made a very important realisation and it's sparked off a trail of thought- I've realised i'm really possessive over things, mostly about the section of my life i'm in, but I think it's quite charming- you may think its creepy.
There are things I meant to throw away a long time ago but i've held on to them. Now, i'm not the type to hold on to memories, because quite frankly I find remembering them too painful so i'd rather them slip happily into the depths of forgotten time.
I don't want to sound like an obnoxious twat when I say that, because i'm not.
I'm the sort of person who lives for the present and future. I hate the past. I hate everything in the past and most of the people in it. And it really bugged me knowing I kept this stuff because I don't know why I did- none of what I kept was from a particularly happy time in my life, in fact its from the build up to the worst time of my life and it's a time i'd rather pretend never happened (reguardless of my own reminders). However, let me just share the stuff I found: Old gig tickets, old photos, old notes, old cards. The stuff I actively keep without even questioning them is possibly everything obtainable from a general day out with Tom; such as receipts, cinema tickets, coach/train/bus tickets, cards, money, wrappers, labels, empty bottles and the general intense memory of his smell and taste, his voice, the way his eyes look when he looks at me and how his skin feels, how his hugs feel, how his hands feel, the warmth of his body- generally how he feels in all aspects. Some of the other things i've kept are empty purfume bottles because the smell reminds me of a certain time we were together: Kate Moss- Velvet hour reminds me of christmas 2008- When the bottle ran dry- the whole of the wintery season (The second season I love most). It reminds me so much of being in his house in Norwich (which he doesn't have anymore)- it reminds me so much that I get the exact moment I sprayed it flash back in my mind as if it just happened.
Back to what I was talking about though...With me saying that era's of my life are too painful to remember, its not me being attention seeking and over exagerating, its because it generally was. I had a conversation earlier on today about how certain people lie about themselves (which is where this is going), whether it be because they can't help it or because they're horrible selfish attention seeking people. I don't know, it genuinely made me grateful for the way I am and made me certain of something (I wont say what).
I'm a very honest person and I don't believe in lying, not for any reason. I don't believe theres any excuse for lying, nor any reason why someone should feel the need to lie. I have never lied of a serious kind, obviously the petty 'i'm not drunk, honest' kind, and I have certainly never lied about another person before.
I am genuine, and i am (if i do say so myself) a very nice person. I've spent the last 3 years going out of my way to make a special person happy, and not because I felt I had to, but because I wanted to. I wanted to be the person to repair his confidence, trust and faith in people and most of all I wanted to make him happy. There is nothing I wouldn't do to make him happy- it's honestly all I want.
Hes been the main reason for myself and my life changing and I think theres something of a serious nature between us, theres something no one else can feel between us. And what makes that so is pure honesty and trust in one another.
This is purely a personal realisation after I admitedly I felt quite rubbish looking through old memories and listening to my old music that reminded me of crap that was in the past, but it is there and people are there for a reason.
Most of the time I leave people behind, because I dont feel they're worth keeping in my life or because I probably don't like them or they've done something I can't forgive. I'm not a very forgiving person anyway because I don't believe people should do things they need to be forgiven for.
And the one thing I can't forgive is lying.
I really do pity people who feel the need to lie to others or about others to make themselves seem more interesting than they really are or to make people like them or some rubbish like that. I hate pretentious people, I hate people trying to be something else, I hate attention seeking people and I hate selfish people.
They always forget the people they're hurting.
All I want to do is make him happy.
Friday, 2 September 2011
I'm actually doing this.
001. What is Your Name? Loreta Laura Hayward
002. How old are you? Going on 20
003. What is the link to your website, blog, or myspace? Have a look
General
004. What is your height? 5'7
005. Do you have any siblings? yes, 5- 3 girls, 2 boys.
006. What is your eye colour? Brown
007. What is your hair colour? Mouse brown/ Golden brownish
008. Do you wear glasses or contacts? Neither
009. Are you right handed or left handed? Right
010. Do you have any piercings? Yes 8 of them
011. Do you smoke? Sometimes, not often
012. Do you swear? Pretty much always
013. Do you get along with your parents? My mum mostly
014. Your heritage? Uhh not exactly sure but a mixture of eastern European, English and Irish :/
015. Your fears? Spiders, water, wide open spaces.
016. Goal you would like to achieve this year? Get a Job.
017. Most overused phrase on an instant messenger? Probably 'omg'
018. Best Physical Feature? Been told its my eyes, but i'd say my bum :)
019. Your bedtime? When the caffeine wears off
020. What time do you arise in the morning? I usually miss mornings..
021. First thoughts waking up? 5 more minutes
022. Do you shower daily? I wash daily, but I don't shower daily. I really don't get that dirty...
This Or That?
023. Bright or dark room? Dark
024. Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate
025. Dogs of cats? Both, I can't possibly choose, dogs understand more and are more playful but cats are more cuddly.
026. Pepsi or Coke? Coke zero
027. McDonalds or Burger King? Real food please
028. Ant or Dec? Neither
029. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea? I've never tried any of them
030. Cappuccino or Coffee? OH MY GOD BOTH <3 Cappuccino is better though
In the last month have you...
031. Drank alcohol? Nope
032. Gone to a mall? Yes
033. Eaten a box of Oreos? No
034. Eaten sushi? I dont eat sushi =S
035. Been on stage? Heck no
036. Been dumped? Heck no
037. Gone skinny dipping? Heck no
038. Stolen Anything? Heck no
Have you ever...
039. Laughed for no reason? Oh yes, many a time
040. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? Not that I know of
041. Been in love? Yes
042. Fired a gun? No
043. Been drunk? Yes
044. Been called a Tease? Yes
045. Been beaten up? Never
046. Shoplifted? Nope
What was the last....
047. Furry thing you touched? The cat down the road earlier today
048. Thing you've said? Out loud- 'Mum wake up!'
049. Song you've listened to? Merle Haggard- Mama tried
050. (Who was the last) person you've spoken to on the phone? My mum
051. Movie you watched? Well I'm currently watching Childs Play 3, if you mean in the cinema it was the Inbetweeners movie
052. Thing you were doing before this? Talking to a few friends
053. Time you cried? Last night
054. Song you've sang? Love song- Korn
055. Time you looked at the clock? About an hour ago
056. Food and drink you've had? Rice cakes with chive cream cheese and cold coffee =/
057. Flavour of gum you've chewed? Mint flavour :S
058. Shoes you've worn? My battered vans
059. Store you've been in? Superdrug
Favourite...
060. Planet? Jupitar
061. Age you've been so far? Probably the age I am now (19)
062. Season? Always Autumn
063. Number? 13
064. TV show? Come dine with me (at the moment)
065. Flower? Lily
Random...
066. How much cash do you have on you? £5 exactly
067. What's a word that rhymes with 'door'? Floor
068. What T-Shirt are you wearing? Its a pretty white floral top
069. What brand of shoes are you wearing? I'm wearing socks
070. What did your last text message say? My boyfriend telling me I have to tell him my dream and than he said he loves me :)
071. What were you doing at midnight last night? Mate I was in bed
072. What's your current desktop picture? Its of me and Tom
073. What's a word that you say a lot? 'omg' or 'fuck'
074. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Probably green or orange
075. How is the weather right now? its dark outside and cold, its london so i presume its cloudy out too
076. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? I noticed his big blue eyes
077. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Very
078. Can you do a headstand (not using a wall)? No O.O
079. Who would you like to see right now? My boyfriend
080. How many pillows do you sleep with? 4
081. Would you go on a date with someone on MySpace? Heck no
082. How do you want to die? I dont mind so long as I don't drown
083. What do you want to be when you grow up? A writer
084. What country would you most like to visit? Iceland
085. How many CDs do you own? A lot
086. How many things, in your past, do you regret? 1 thing, or 2.
087. Do you think you are attractive? It really depends on my mood
088. Do you believe in yourself? Not really but that depends on my mood too
089. Do you want to get married? Yes
In a boy/girl...
090. Favourite eye colour? Blue
091. Favourite hair colour? Mouse brown
092. Short or long hair? Short
093. Height? 6ft2
094. Weight? However much Tom weighs.
002. How old are you? Going on 20
003. What is the link to your website, blog, or myspace? Have a look
General
004. What is your height? 5'7
005. Do you have any siblings? yes, 5- 3 girls, 2 boys.
006. What is your eye colour? Brown
007. What is your hair colour? Mouse brown/ Golden brownish
008. Do you wear glasses or contacts? Neither
009. Are you right handed or left handed? Right
010. Do you have any piercings? Yes 8 of them
011. Do you smoke? Sometimes, not often
012. Do you swear? Pretty much always
013. Do you get along with your parents? My mum mostly
014. Your heritage? Uhh not exactly sure but a mixture of eastern European, English and Irish :/
015. Your fears? Spiders, water, wide open spaces.
016. Goal you would like to achieve this year? Get a Job.
017. Most overused phrase on an instant messenger? Probably 'omg'
018. Best Physical Feature? Been told its my eyes, but i'd say my bum :)
019. Your bedtime? When the caffeine wears off
020. What time do you arise in the morning? I usually miss mornings..
021. First thoughts waking up? 5 more minutes
022. Do you shower daily? I wash daily, but I don't shower daily. I really don't get that dirty...
This Or That?
023. Bright or dark room? Dark
024. Chocolate or vanilla? Chocolate
025. Dogs of cats? Both, I can't possibly choose, dogs understand more and are more playful but cats are more cuddly.
026. Pepsi or Coke? Coke zero
027. McDonalds or Burger King? Real food please
028. Ant or Dec? Neither
029. Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea? I've never tried any of them
030. Cappuccino or Coffee? OH MY GOD BOTH <3 Cappuccino is better though
In the last month have you...
031. Drank alcohol? Nope
032. Gone to a mall? Yes
033. Eaten a box of Oreos? No
034. Eaten sushi? I dont eat sushi =S
035. Been on stage? Heck no
036. Been dumped? Heck no
037. Gone skinny dipping? Heck no
038. Stolen Anything? Heck no
Have you ever...
039. Laughed for no reason? Oh yes, many a time
040. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do? Not that I know of
041. Been in love? Yes
042. Fired a gun? No
043. Been drunk? Yes
044. Been called a Tease? Yes
045. Been beaten up? Never
046. Shoplifted? Nope
What was the last....
047. Furry thing you touched? The cat down the road earlier today
048. Thing you've said? Out loud- 'Mum wake up!'
049. Song you've listened to? Merle Haggard- Mama tried
050. (Who was the last) person you've spoken to on the phone? My mum
051. Movie you watched? Well I'm currently watching Childs Play 3, if you mean in the cinema it was the Inbetweeners movie
052. Thing you were doing before this? Talking to a few friends
053. Time you cried? Last night
054. Song you've sang? Love song- Korn
055. Time you looked at the clock? About an hour ago
056. Food and drink you've had? Rice cakes with chive cream cheese and cold coffee =/
057. Flavour of gum you've chewed? Mint flavour :S
058. Shoes you've worn? My battered vans
059. Store you've been in? Superdrug
Favourite...
060. Planet? Jupitar
061. Age you've been so far? Probably the age I am now (19)
062. Season? Always Autumn
063. Number? 13
064. TV show? Come dine with me (at the moment)
065. Flower? Lily
Random...
066. How much cash do you have on you? £5 exactly
067. What's a word that rhymes with 'door'? Floor
068. What T-Shirt are you wearing? Its a pretty white floral top
069. What brand of shoes are you wearing? I'm wearing socks
070. What did your last text message say? My boyfriend telling me I have to tell him my dream and than he said he loves me :)
071. What were you doing at midnight last night? Mate I was in bed
072. What's your current desktop picture? Its of me and Tom
073. What's a word that you say a lot? 'omg' or 'fuck'
074. If you were a crayon, what colour would you be? Probably green or orange
075. How is the weather right now? its dark outside and cold, its london so i presume its cloudy out too
076. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? I noticed his big blue eyes
077. Are you too shy to ask someone out? Very
078. Can you do a headstand (not using a wall)? No O.O
079. Who would you like to see right now? My boyfriend
080. How many pillows do you sleep with? 4
081. Would you go on a date with someone on MySpace? Heck no
082. How do you want to die? I dont mind so long as I don't drown
083. What do you want to be when you grow up? A writer
084. What country would you most like to visit? Iceland
085. How many CDs do you own? A lot
086. How many things, in your past, do you regret? 1 thing, or 2.
087. Do you think you are attractive? It really depends on my mood
088. Do you believe in yourself? Not really but that depends on my mood too
089. Do you want to get married? Yes
In a boy/girl...
090. Favourite eye colour? Blue
091. Favourite hair colour? Mouse brown
092. Short or long hair? Short
093. Height? 6ft2
094. Weight? However much Tom weighs.
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